I'm good....
Actually, I'm not so good. I sunbathed yesterday but didn't realise the strength of the sun on that particular day, so discovered later on that my shoulders and upper back resembles a very rare piece of steak.
It made me very tired yesterday, and sadly, quite bitter and emotional.
I have no idea why this is.
I do have one reason though. I'm 19, and relatively close to being able to drive legally, in truth, over the past couple of years, I have been more lazy and 'can't be asked' to make the effort to get anywhere. I do of course go out from time to time.
But now I am close to being able to drive, I pine and pine to hopefully get my car soon.
In talks of buying a Peugeot 107 in Red
It'll be so nice to have that extra bit of independance, to not have to check if its okay for my parents to drop me off at a certain place.
I'm excited but also restless, I went for a test drive in the car, and I'm not sure if anyone gets this feeling, but I'm terrified of it getting sold.
I know no big deal, but I kinda felt like I'd made a bond with the car
And, don't laugh, but I've got a name for him. He's going to be Billy.
Whoever said, before you try for a kid, buy a dog first - instincts tell me that was one my sister made up- what about buying your own little car first?



Of course in the rest of my sea of issues, I think I've got a chance of being happy. But happiness isn't exactly my idea of happiness. If that makes sense, you know when you have something planned the exact way you want it, but when it happens, its kinda different to what you wanted or expected, you like it, but are a little scared...
that's kinda how I feel about this situation. I'm sure most of you can guess what category of life troubles it fits into......

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